So its officially been one year since I was diagnosed with Leukemia....and just thinking about everything that has happened over the past year is just plain C-R-A-Z-Y!
Chemo, losing hair, being infused with all sorts of different bodily needs, taking steriods, body blowing up from the steriods, had a transplant, lost all my muscle, kept some sort of external line in my body, didn't work, barely could get up some days, and significantly lost alot of weight....whew! there is probably so much more but just all that makes me tired thinking of it.
At first thinking of this day coming made me sad because of all the horrible memories of finding out and not knowing a single thing about what was going to happen. But as i got to think of it, all of this CRAP that i had to go through just made me STRONGER and that much of a better person. Don't get me wrong me, those memories will stay with me the rest of my life and i will always remember how horrible i felt and how NOBODY should have to go through what i had to. I would have to say that the worse "emotional feeling" i felt personally was when i lost my hair. I remember that day like I am still there. I remember going to the bathroom and not feeling the greatest and sitting there started running my fingers through my hair and it just started coming out in big clumps and falling to the wayside of the toilet. I cried and then i screamed to only find my mom running into the restroom to pull me out of there. That's when i decided i just need to shave it so i would NEVER have to have that feeling again.
This disease let me see that even though I almost lost my life, that I can come out better than I was. All the stupid crap that I use to worry about is just nothing and not a big deal. What is a BIG deal is living your life to fullest and always doing things that make you happy. Life is too short to do things that don't fulfill you.
Sooo i am OFFICIALLY a one-year cancer survivor -- YAY me! May it never come back and may I keep living my life to the happiest that I can!
love you all..thank you for supporting me this past year..it has meant the world to me to know that there are soo many people out there that care.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Monday, April 4, 2011
Friday, April 1, 2011
Doing things you don't recall...
and eating a donut. I look over at my water bottle and it is
empty...where did it go????? I don't even recall drinking this
morning...weird
Unfortunately, I do remember that donut I just ate...
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